February 25, 2012

vomit, urine and A LOT OF TEARS!

first a warning this post is gonna have a lot of TMI in it! but Its my blog and I can write what I want to so feel free to read on or not lol. Hope you have a strong stomach!

So last night I was feeling very very gross the night before I had thrown up all my chipotle burrito that was amazing but gross coming up to the point that it will be a while before I eat there again! So pretty much all day yesterday I was feeling very gross and throwning up which I really don't mind because Its for a good reason Hello Baby growing inside of me! Its not my favorite part of being pregnant thats for sure but the fact that i'm pregnant and throwning up wouldn't have it anyother way :)  so yesterday all I wanted to eat was Hot Dogs for any of you who know me...I don't like Hot Dogs I don't say hey lets make hot dogs for dinner or what not...but Target has amazing all beef Hot Dogs that are amazing. which i'm sure they are pregnancy amazing because if i wasn't preggers I'm sure they would taste like any other hot dog. so then we made a trip to sams club for some nathans hot dog which was delicious as well for dinner. but it still didn't make my nauseaness go away so Were heading to bed and I'm just laying in bed after already going pee multiple times in a 15 min time frame of course :) lol and then it hit me I better go pee again cause i'm gonna barf really soon so I did. and then like 2 minutes later I start to barf and this one is a bad one its a splashy barf *gross* yes I know so i'm barfing and getting splashed by it and then....My bladder decides to have a mind of its own and while i'm barfing I start to wet my pants! and there is nothing I can do about it with every force of barf I pee I was sooo imbarassed!! so i'm done barfing and thats when the tears come! Here I am sitting on the floor of the bathroom infront of the toilet i smell like throw up cause its all on my face and chest and I have made a puddle on our bathroom rug and I can't stop the tears I'm crying majorly! Lance comes in and is like honey whats wrong and I tell him between sobs that I peed my pants and have vomit on me and I did not what him to see me like that and he in his sweet voice says honey thats okay. and continues to tell me that everything is okay and i'm a sobing mess! so I clean up the bathroom and get in the shower and feel terrible and so emotional and realize i'm pretty sure I just had my pregnancy emotional breakdown ! Pregnancy does such weird things with your emotions and my sweet hubby was such a trooper and after I layed back down in bed he put his hand on my tummy and asked if I was okay and then just held his hand there. :) I wonder often how in the world I got sooo lucky to have Lance in my life and as my Husband. He is Amazing!

February 20, 2012

New Addition!

Well I can't keep this news in anymore!  I'm 10 weeks pregnant!! Baby McGee is Due September 18th 2012! We couldn't be more happy!! My doctor is amazing!! She is use to high risk pregnancy and has been on top of everything between lab work and u/s and putting me on restrictions! I am sooo happy to have her on my team! Each week we have gone in for ultrasounds and have seen progress and a good strong heart beat! Today we had a sonogram and got to hear the heartbeat 160bpm nice and strong and baby wiggled for us!! sooo cute!! I think it was showing off for Daddy since today was the first time Daddy got to go with me! :) 2 more weeks and I should be off restrictions! hello GYM how I have missed you!! so excited to actually see a baby growing inside of me and to see and hear that beautiful sound of a baby heart beating!!! LOVE IT!

(oh and no fertility drugs for me! I did the Raw Food for a month and lost weight! see previous posts!) I have PCOS and I'm FINALLY going to have a baby!!! Miracles happen!!

February 6, 2012

Our Loss, Heaven's Gain....

Their are dates everyone remembers 9-11 12-07 09-17 ext...and then there are those personal dates that are unique for every person 04/20/99 the day my grandpa J. died. 12/31/09 my Aunt Carol died. 05/18/07 I married my Best Friend 05/25/2006 graduated from High School ect...and the list goes on I added a new date I'll never forget and I wish it was a pleasant date..02/04/12 the day I got the news that my Sweet Aunt Judy passed away.

You see Aunt Judy wasn't just an "Aunt" she was a best friend a sister and a second Mom to me. She is the Woman who showed me how to wear make-up, to serve others to laugh at yourself because life is to short. She is who taught me what kind of Aunt I wanted to be. She never had kids of her own so she loved us like we were her own.

With all the infertility issues I've been through She is who helped me know that You don't have to birth a child to be A Mother. She was the PERFECT example of that. Her example helped me through some of my toughest times and when I lost my babies she cried with me and held me.

Aunt Judy came to every choir concert, every play, every graduation, wedding ect... She was there for everything. Family dinners, Sunday dinners and every thanksgiving she brought the stuffing the best stuffing! To say she will be missed is such an understatement but how do I explain in words just how much My Heart hurts and aches for her to be with me and my family right now... smiling and laughing.  She was an amazing woman and her absence has caused a void in my life. I am grateful for the Gospel of Jesus Christ and I know I will see her again and I know she is watching over us now. but it still hurts that she is not here to give a hug or here to hear her laughing. But I look forward to the great reunion that will be when we are all again together as a family in Heaven.

February 4, 2012

When Music is all you have to express your feelings

(Cherie Call)

She is not the picture on the magazine
She's the woman just behind you at the checkout stand
She may appear to be common but she mystifies
In all the ways the wisest men and children understand
'Cause she has eyes that sparkle with her love
And she has a smile that's as gentle as a dove
And no woman from a movie or an ad could ever hope to be
As beautiful as she

She is not a highly honored diplomat
Held responsible to lead the world to peace
But what she does is every bit as serious
Amidst the turmoil everywhere that will never cease
'Cause she has hands that wipe the tears away
And she has a voice that makes everything O.K.
And no woman from the papers or T.V. could ever hope to be
As indispensable as she

And it breaks my heart every time I see her wonder
If she means anything in this world that pulls her under
And she doesn't always see the way that Heaven smiles above her
That's the reason I try to always tell her that I love her
'Cause she may not be known for giving millions
To the charities and auctions on the news
But I believe she's given more than anyone
In all the times she's ever had to choose
To give up sleep to rock her children  talk to her Neices every night
And give her heart to always hold their dreams so tight

And the best that you or I could ever hope to be
Is as wonderful as she
And the best that you or I could ever hope to be
Is as wonderful as she

Love You Aunt Judy.