Moments that take your breath away...

There are moments in my life where I stop and take a mental picture if I really want to remember something and I kid you not it works! to this day I still remember being 8ish driving on the dirt road from Young with my family and Micheal McLean song " she see's a diamond" song was playing and I was looking out the window and thought I wish this moment could last forever! *snap* that was the sound of the mental picture :) As I have gotten older its worked the same our drive back from Rocky Point Triathlon just Me and My Mama and Daddio and a storm was coming in the distance and the skies were beautiful! We just had one of the best weekends ever!*snap*  Lots of Mental pictures have been taken and I cherish all of them! My favorite Mental Picture would be my wedding day I felt like I was in a dream like this really wasn't happening cause it was just to perfect and everything was beautiful and I had the most amazing man by my side. It was one of those days that you dreamed about and saw other people enjoy and was excited but never really thought you'd be old enough to have that moment.  I'm not sure if it's because of the waiting for your day to happen makes that day sweeter but I think its a combo...A combination of the waiting for something great and having the right person / people there to celebrate with you.

The Last 11 weeks have been mental picture after mental picture after am I in a faiy tale? You have you life planned out when your young..college, marriage, babies..ect...but sometimes there is a lot of space between those events that you never thought you'd have. like It is 1512 days
( 4 years, 1 month, 22 days ) of space between us TTC to today. To some that may not be a lot and for some their space might be longer or shorter but this is Our space and those 1512 days have seen some pretty dramatic, emotional, heart breaking, wonderful, magical, sweet, bitter, beautiful days. I think its because of those flippin hard days and heartbreaking events that happened that make this day that much more sweet and wonderful. I wouldn't trade any of those days for the world because  I know that I wouldn't be the person I am today if it wasn't for all of those 1512 days.

I got to see my sweet baby wave to me on the screen yesterday and it was so precious to see such little fingers already and I just wanted to have that moment last forever so mental picture was taken and I can't help but think that little one was saying " Hi Mom...I'm finally coming! sorry it took so long"  Its an amazing feeling when you have the perfect day not because everything went right on that day but because of where I am and who I am with that is what makes the perfect day. I actually felt like wow this is really happening I'm having a baby....I still can't wrap my mind around that but its becoming easier the more times I see the Baby.  So thank you 1512 days for everything you blessed me with. You have made this day that much sweeter.

Beautiful Heartbreak

If you have yet to see this video by Hilary Weeks Beautiful Heartbreak here is your chance.




seriously so beautiful! I love this song and the video captures it perfectly!  Read the lyrics . I love Hilary Weeks her music has always spoken to my soul and this song is no different!  One of my favorite parts is

"I used to pray he'd take it all away,
 But instead it became a beautiful heartbreak.

I never dreamed my heart would make it,
I thought about turning around;
But heaven has shown me miracles,
I never would have seen from the ground. "


I am so grateful to be where I am today and for all the miracles Heaven has shown me especially this little huge miracle thats living inside of me. 13 weeks and couldn't be more happier.

(don't mind the dirty bathroom and mirror)

12 Weeks and counting

I am very excited to say I'm 12 weeks! I have a dr. appointment Thursday afternoon and I am very excited to see baby again! I'm crossing my fingers that I am able to be taken off my exercise restrictions! I have missed working out soo bad! My Sister Allison sent me these cute stickers for taking pictures that say how many weeks I am I missed the 8 week one because I was a little side tracked by my emotions and My sweet Aunt Judy's passing but I wanted to make sure I got the next one which was 12 weeks! the next one is 16weeks in which I am soo hoping that we know the sex of baby McGee by then!! but anyways  so far the pregnancy has been wonderful! I have had tons of pregnancy sickness which is such a good sign and has been wonderful to know I'm feeling this gross because I have a freakin human being growing inside of me!! Thats just amazing to me! The last couple of day's I've had some serious lower back issues so i'm gonna make an appointment with the Clinic at Parker to hopefully get some relief! I am so excited to hear of all the Baby announcements on FB and am praying everyday for those who are still waiting for their miracle! I tell baby all the time to tell his or her friends to come down too! Their Amazing parents are anxiously waiting!!!

Its not the greatest picture and the lighting is awful but oh well! plus I know I look bigger than 12 weeks thats what happens when you can't exercise and no its not twins! but I still wanted to take the picture.  Thanks Alli for the stickers!!

vomit, urine and A LOT OF TEARS!

first a warning this post is gonna have a lot of TMI in it! but Its my blog and I can write what I want to so feel free to read on or not lol. Hope you have a strong stomach!

So last night I was feeling very very gross the night before I had thrown up all my chipotle burrito that was amazing but gross coming up to the point that it will be a while before I eat there again! So pretty much all day yesterday I was feeling very gross and throwning up which I really don't mind because Its for a good reason Hello Baby growing inside of me! Its not my favorite part of being pregnant thats for sure but the fact that i'm pregnant and throwning up wouldn't have it anyother way :)  so yesterday all I wanted to eat was Hot Dogs for any of you who know me...I don't like Hot Dogs I don't say hey lets make hot dogs for dinner or what not...but Target has amazing all beef Hot Dogs that are amazing. which i'm sure they are pregnancy amazing because if i wasn't preggers I'm sure they would taste like any other hot dog. so then we made a trip to sams club for some nathans hot dog which was delicious as well for dinner. but it still didn't make my nauseaness go away so Were heading to bed and I'm just laying in bed after already going pee multiple times in a 15 min time frame of course :) lol and then it hit me I better go pee again cause i'm gonna barf really soon so I did. and then like 2 minutes later I start to barf and this one is a bad one its a splashy barf *gross* yes I know so i'm barfing and getting splashed by it and then....My bladder decides to have a mind of its own and while i'm barfing I start to wet my pants! and there is nothing I can do about it with every force of barf I pee I was sooo imbarassed!! so i'm done barfing and thats when the tears come! Here I am sitting on the floor of the bathroom infront of the toilet i smell like throw up cause its all on my face and chest and I have made a puddle on our bathroom rug and I can't stop the tears I'm crying majorly! Lance comes in and is like honey whats wrong and I tell him between sobs that I peed my pants and have vomit on me and I did not what him to see me like that and he in his sweet voice says honey thats okay. and continues to tell me that everything is okay and i'm a sobing mess! so I clean up the bathroom and get in the shower and feel terrible and so emotional and realize i'm pretty sure I just had my pregnancy emotional breakdown ! Pregnancy does such weird things with your emotions and my sweet hubby was such a trooper and after I layed back down in bed he put his hand on my tummy and asked if I was okay and then just held his hand there. :) I wonder often how in the world I got sooo lucky to have Lance in my life and as my Husband. He is Amazing!

New Addition!

Well I can't keep this news in anymore!  I'm 10 weeks pregnant!! Baby McGee is Due September 18th 2012! We couldn't be more happy!! My doctor is amazing!! She is use to high risk pregnancy and has been on top of everything between lab work and u/s and putting me on restrictions! I am sooo happy to have her on my team! Each week we have gone in for ultrasounds and have seen progress and a good strong heart beat! Today we had a sonogram and got to hear the heartbeat 160bpm nice and strong and baby wiggled for us!! sooo cute!! I think it was showing off for Daddy since today was the first time Daddy got to go with me! :) 2 more weeks and I should be off restrictions! hello GYM how I have missed you!! so excited to actually see a baby growing inside of me and to see and hear that beautiful sound of a baby heart beating!!! LOVE IT!

(oh and no fertility drugs for me! I did the Raw Food for a month and lost weight! see previous posts!) I have PCOS and I'm FINALLY going to have a baby!!! Miracles happen!!

Morning Sickness...say what?

I'm pretty sure the person who named it "morning" sickness was a guy. I think it sould just be called Pregnancy sickness because it happens all day long! lol Its been great I have been very happy that i'm getting sick its a really good sign plus its a reminder to me that I have an amazing miracle baby in me and that makes it all worth wild.  yesterday was the first day I threw my guts up and it was awesome! i had my morning shake of spinach, strawberries, and blueberries and for some reason my body didn't  want it in my tummy very long totally threw it all up! plus throwing up a shake isn't that bad so i'm glad thats what i ate! plus lately i've just been neaseous all day long pretty much and after throwing up i had like 2 hours of not feeling neaseous so it was AMAZING! I feel like a little kid at church with my "snacks" aka keep my tummy feeling okay crackers and what not. this pregnancy hasn't even come close to being the same as last time. I think its cause its a healthy pregnancy and plus i am further along than i was before too. so tomorrow I have my first ultrasound and I'm soooooo freaking excited for it. Almost feeling like I'm dreaming like it hasn't hit me that tomorrow I'm gonna see my little baby and hear his or her heartbeat I have no idea how thats gonna be but I hear its one of the best feelings ever so I'm super excited! especially since the last time I had an ultrasound to check on the baby my uterus was completly empty and they confirmed my complete miscarriage so its gonna be awesome to see something! and HEAR something too!! 

Not a day goes by that I don't feel like I really have to enjoy every moment even the neaseous and throwing up because I know there are so many wonderful women who would do anything to be in my situation and I know this because I use to be one of those women who would give their right arm to feel "morning sickness" or feel gross because theres a baby inside of you not because you have the flu or anything. I am very grateful for my little big miracle and I refuse to complain about it because I just can't its just to wonderful and i've waited so long for it. I pray everyday for couples to get their miracle and to get it SOON!

1,250 Days...

Thats how many day's I have waited for this 1,250....

That is 29,976 hours I have waited for this....

That is 3 Years 5 Months and 3 Days I've waited for this...

On July 4th 2011 I woke up like any other day we watched the hot dog contest we watched the patriot and national tresure we ate yummy BBQ!! and then right be fore we went out side to the fireworks I thought maybe I should take a test didn't think much of it and didn't even tell Lance cause I was thinking it wasn't a big deal it would come back neg. or it was to early for anything anyways but i ran back to the bathroom to look at the test before we went outside and to my surprise it had 2 Lines!! 2 LINES!!! I couldn't believe it so i grab a flashlight because out lights were all out for the fireworks we were gonna watch in our backyard Lance came in to grab the camera and I told him I had something to show him I shined the flashlight on the test and Lance said what is that!? " what does it look like?" i said. " i don't know it kinda looks like a test but i've never seen one like that before" ( it was a strip so not a pee on the stick one) i said do you see the two lines? he said yeah when did you take this test? i said tonight! he was so suprise one because i usally tell him when i'm taking a test and 2 i didn't tell him this time and it was early and it was POSITIVE!!!we hugged and cried a little and then watched the most beautiful fireworks display! it was the best 4th of July EVER!! later that week i got a first response test and on my missed period it came back with another BFP!!! for anyone who has followed my blog you know this isn't the first positive i have gotten last novemeber i got one too...and this month I would have been due to have the baby but in stead the Lord blessed me with another one on its way! I have been so blessed! I have been using progestrone cream and acupuncture and I believe 100% that is how i was able to get preggers. i have kept using progestrone cream to help keep the pregnancy strong and healthy and so far i have been pregnant longer than last time and have no reason why this pregnancy won't go full term....The Doctors are hopeful and we are too! I just want to let you all know i still pray every night for those friends and family that are still suffering with Infertility and I pray your miracle day will come SO SO SO SO SOON!!









3.2012 I can't wait to see you baby!!