One year older and wiser too...

It amazes me that 3 years ago today I was in a hospital in Dallas bringing my sweet rainbow Baby earth side! I can still remember the peace and joy I felt as lance placed her in my arms with tears in his eyes. It was a long wait to get her but oh how she has been worth it! She has always had a very tender spirit about her a very curious little girl for sure!  She has loves getting into things and finding new things and she's such a happy baby! She has always been a great sleeper a great tether she's feisty and energetic and loves girly things. She LOVES her DADDy! Seriously loves him!!! Ever since Emily was born Lance has taken the role of getting up with Kensley ( cause Emily sucks at sleeping lol) and he puts Kensley to bed and this week he was sick so I needed to and she was so not happy about me laying down by her instead of her DADA! Watching there relationship over the last 3 years has been such a precious thing. Because as much as she LOVES her Daddy, Her Daddy LOvES her more! I'm so excited to see what the next year brings and how K grows and learns! I'm so blessed and feel so lucky to be her Mom. Never in my life have I felt so comfortable in a role as I have with taking on Motherhood. I'm not the perfect mom but by golly no other woman could love my Kensley more than me! ( I say woman cause well her daddy loves her too)  so Kensley Happy Birthday my precious daughter!

Life is beautiful

I can't believe it's already Mothers Day 2015!!  It's my 3rd Mother's Day where I have had the privilege of having my babies here to hold. I am still amazed I am a Mom and that I have 2 beautiful daughters! I am so grateful to be their mom. I never knew how much you could love someone and then I married my Husband and I thought wow I never knew I could love someone this much! And then I finally got pregnant after 3 years of trying and I loved that baby so much and then miscarried and I never knew you could love someone so much without meeting them and finally after 5 years I got to hold my healthy perfect newborn daughter in my arms and the love I instantly had for her was overwhelming! I never believed in love at first sight until her! And then when I held my beautiful second miracle baby in my arms at the hospital I was so amazed how much more love I had in me to give to not just this newborn but to her big sister and to her Daddy. 

I'm not going to lie this last year has been rough and has tested me and my patience and sanity and I haven't be very graceful at times with dealing with sleep deprivation and adjusting to two babies and having my husband finish his last year of school and boards and graduation and moving back home but I think because of this hard times it's made the good times that much sweeter and those hard nights of no sleep have made me appreciate not just my mother but all mothers! It's a hard role being a Mother but the rewards are far greater than anything I have ever known! I absolutely positively love and adore being A Mom. I hope this next year I can grow and be a little better each day I hope I can remember to stay in the moment more and live each day more fuller. I only have my daughters for a few years before they grow up move out get married and hopefully have a family of their own and I don't want to miss these sweet years while I'm still their favorite person who makes everything better:). Thank you Kensley thank you Emily for making me a Mom here on Earth:) I love you more than you will ever know!

Oh the places you'll go

It's 1am in the morning and I'm sitting in my rocking chair with my beautiful 9 month old Emily sleeping in my arms it's the second time I have been up with her and if history repeats it self then it won't be the last in fact I will probably get another 2 or 3 chances to sit in the chair and hold her and some nights I am in tears exhausted wishing I could sleep for more than 2 hours at a time and some nights I blog and some nights I just FB stalk my friends and some nights I just bring her in bed next to me. (Except now I'm scared to do that since she fell off the other week...yeah I felt like the worst mom ever!) She us fine but now I'm back to the rocker and tonight it's cold and I have a lot on my mind. Which I'm sure many woman can relate to.

The last two weeks my husband has been studing for his last round of boards and this last weekend he took them! It was very long days of not seeing him and trying to keep up with a very energetic 2 year old and a I don't like to sleep much 9 month old. I was extremely nervous about these weeks to come and many times a day I found myself in my room door shut kneeling in prayer mainly for strength and patience. I am still amazed by how much my Father in Heaven is awear of me and my needs. Emily was sleeping better the weather was beautiful and made outdoor adventures/walks fun and angels dressed up like friends visited me, called, texted, and or hang out with me. I knew the only way I could survive these two weeks was if I started my week right...so I loaded the girls up for church and I'm greatful for the members and all their support and willingness to help me :) it truely takes a village! And we survived! The Lord answered my prayers!

 It's been a hard adjustment having two so close and one who doesn't like to sleep unless it's in my arms or right next to me but I know I wouldn't have it any other way. These precious girls bring so much joy into our home. The hard days much the good days that much better and I am so blessed to be their Mommy. Tonight I was putting K down for bed laying next to hear and she whispers "mama...mommy..." I whispered "what" back and she said 'I ove eww' and my heart just filled up with love and peace and joy and I kissed her forehead and said ' I love you too'  she then preceded to say mommy mama several times and state jibberish but it was super cute and I remember thinking Brittany take a mental note of this don't forget it. So hear I am it's 1:30 in the morning I'm holding my sweet 9 month old in my rocking chair blogging about her and her sister and how I know my Heavenly Father loves me. Life is busy and hard but it is so Beautiful!

Adventure awaits.....while Mommy is busy

This time Mommy went potty and Kensley dumped popcorn old popcorn too out and I told her to pick it up and she is but taking it outside....it's popcorn it's okay it won't smell as it decomposes in the yard right!? Plus we have tons of birds and she loves to bird watch! So I'm not stopping her maybe I should but I'm not I'm just letting her be little and well feed the birds :) the things she gets into when she knows Mommy is busy either taking laundry out/in or folding it or putting it away or nursing sister or going potty amazes me! She has like a sixth sense I tell ya. Never a dull moment with her:)

 She does how ever do a good job about putting stuff back...most of the time! :) ah man she is a blast!