Time Marches on...!!!!

How is it March already!!! Kensley will be 6 months old on the 12th!! She is all over the place rolling around and scooting she hasn't mastered the sitting up on her own yet but getting there! She is finding new sounds and loves to be vocal! She is such a happy baby and loves to smile and cuddle!!

I am still doing no poo and still liking it! So far I have gone5days without washing my hair! And I think that is the max I can and will go! Lol happy march!

5 days no poo!

Well it's Friday and I just washed my hair 'no poo' style again. Which means my hair wasn't washed since Sunday night!! And this week I got more compliments on my hair! I forgot to take a picture today of how my hair looked but basically it looked greasy! I will take a picture today after my hair dries today. Today I noticed too my scalp was itchy which made me want to wash it e en more!! Lol but it's almost been a week and so far I like it!

Day 3

So today is day 3 of no poo I washed my hair Sunday night and its Wednesday morning this is what my hair looks like after I brushed through it. Does it look clean? I feel like its a little oily but I think I'm going to wait till tomorrow to wash it! 4 days! Now I do still shower I just put my hair in a high pony tail and keep my hair dry. So far I'm liking it.

No poo hair!

So last night I washed my hair no poo style and let it air dry went to bed and woke up this morning brushed out my hair and then curled it so here are the before and after pictures. No product in my hair at all!

"No Poo" ......

So I have been trying to figure out how to make my hair healither I have noticed build up like nasty white film on my scalp. not like dandriff its hard to describe but anyways I was on Pinterest watching the Grammys and found this pin! how to wash your hair No Poo Style.

 I have heard of people not using shampoo or washing hair once a week kinda thing but never heard of "no poo" so this was all new and very interesting! I am trying to be more healthy and using less chemicals to me sounds good :) I know I'm weird and it might sound crazy but I'm use to Crazy!

check out her blog code red hat she blogs about  no-poo. It talks about how you wash your hair with baking soda and water on your scalp and then vinegar and water on your ends. So tonight I tried it out I am excited to see how it goes and if it makes my hair grow faster and healthier. As my hair is trying tonight it feels clean and smells clean not like vinegar or anything really. I'm excited to see what it does! plus its cheap! and I'm running out of shampoo anyways so I figured I'd try it out! :) I'm interested in seeing how my hair curls and what not. If any of you wanna join me feel free to!! :) I'd love to hear how it works for others too! :)

FORK

While I was doing the dishes I snapped a picture of my dirty forks :)

February photo a day

I love when people do this so I decided since I finally have a phone that makes it easy to play I would this month! Plus it's something fun to do each day and so here I go! Play along with me if you want!

This Really is My Life

      After so many years of trying and  thinking I might just not have a baby in this life after all and losing hope and having many heart breaks and then picking myself back up and holding on to Lance's Faith that everything was going to work out and we would get our baby! I still can't believe that I have a baby.
      A year ago yesterday I heard her heartbeat for the first time! It was the most beautiful sound I have ever heard in my life (up until I heard her cry.)  I am amazed everytime I go get her out of her crib that she is mine! her sweet giggles and smiles melt my heart! Or when she falls asleep in my arms I wish I could hold her forever! I just want to squeeze her!!! This little baby of mine is just soo precious! She was worth the wait! I will never understand the why's of things that happened but thats okay because in my heart I know that the things I went through were preparing me for this moment. The moment I became Kensley's Mama. She is truly our rainbow baby and such a miracle and joy in our lives! I still laugh at myself everytime I still get choked up when I'm holding her or feeding her or hear her laugh. Its silly really its been 4.5 months now and I still can't keep the water works in control! In the quiet of the night when I sneek in to check on her my heart melts and I say in my head "This really is my life!" I'm not dreaming.
      We are so blessed to have this little miracle in our home and she has brought so much joy and peace into our lives. I like to go through her pictures at night and see how she has grown! I just love her soo much! So here are some pictures enjoy!

 So tiny!

 She really is Daddy's Girl

 Sleeping beauty

 before she got chunky!

 She is such a snuggle bug!

 The sleepy CandyCorn!

 Happy Girl

 Chillin' with Daddy

 Tummy Time!

 Melts my Heart

Moments like these are just so sweet!!!

 

I still can't believe a year ago she was just a little bean in my tummy!

 

 

 

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Getting there

So it's been 2 weeks since I started the taislim challenge and I am feeling great! So far I lost almost 10lbs ( 9.8) and 20 inches !! I have been hitting the gym at night when k is sleeping and lance is home. Yesterday I was at a friends house watching kids while she picked a friend up at the airport and I didn't lose my breath or felt like dying when I was running/ chasing after them! It's the small victories that mean a lot! Lol I love getting back in shape and I am loving taislim! Lbhealth.freelife.com has all the info about the shakes and products I'm using and about the challenge!!:) here's to more milestones!

2013

'SO this is the New Year!...'.-Death Cab for Cutie

Its a New Year and I only have a few minutes to blog K is napping so I figured I'd update my blogs! I am gonna tey to be better about updating this blog more for my Family and friends that aren't close by!
Lance started Tri 5 on Monday! he has class mon-thur 7am-5pm no thats not a typo! crazy! But so glad he has Fridays off even though most likely they will be a day of study anyways! But He Graduates Next Year! this is his last year for lectures and then he is in the clinic! Dec 2014 is getting closer!! He is still teaching Elders Quorum every 4th Sunday and Loving Chiropractic! Over the break he got to work on his Dad I think every night we were with them! :) Lance loves when people are willing to get adjusted by him so he can gain more expirenece! He also got to help with building my Parents house in Young! He had a blast with my brother Duston and spending more time with him and my Dad. The house is looking great! while we were in AZ Lance was able to bless our little Kensley and it was beautiful having so many friends and family there to support! It was such a special Day!
Kensley Noel had her 1st Christmas and was soo sweet and cute for family! She really is such a good baby and so happy! We are very blessed!! She finally noticed her toys hanging on her car seat and found her mouth! fingers hands and toys go straight to it now! She still sucks her thumb!! :) and sleeps through the night! she is doing so good! she is our BIG baby! 17.2 pounds 26 inches yeah she's huge! I love it!! She got to see her first Snow fall this Christmas as well!! It was sooo awesome! She is almost rolling from her back to her tummy but not quite there yet! She has found her laugh and Lance says she gets it from me.....She kinda snorts! Its the cutest thing ever! We have so much fun with her! She is such a cuddle bug and Daddy and Mommy LOVE that! She loves Bathtime sooo much! She always has a smile to give! She is just so much fun and Brings sooo much joy into our home! We feel so blessed to be her Parents!
I am loving Motherhood! I love the typical housework stuff laundry, cleaning, dinner making ect stuff! I love spending my days with K and watching her Grow I want her to slow down so bad but I don't see that happening! dang it! I am still nursing and hope to be able to nurse at the very least 1year but 18 months would be awesome! We shall see! I am still the Young Womens Secretary and loving it. I do miss Relief Society but Its all good! I love the new teaching material! Life is great here in Texas! oh I hear my little one! Its time to go!

The Good Life

I haven't blogged in forever!! Lots to blog but haven't made the time! When Kensley is awake I like to entertain her more like she entertains me! and when she is napping I'm cleaning/laundry/cooking/sleeping... Kensley Is growing so fast! Grandma Kay was here for 6 weeks! We Loved her visit! so did Kensley! Grandpa/ Papa Johnston came out the weekend before Nana Kay left. K loved it! We went to the State Fair and it was such a blast! K was amazing during the whole day! She ate slept and was awake for alittle bit!  Enjoy the Pictures!!

Nana Kay Left and I was on my own! Thankfully K sleeps great! has from birth! It wasn't as scary as I thought it would be by myself! :) We have been blessed with such a sweet spirit!! She is sleeping threw the night now and that is wonderful! just before her 2 month mark she slept 8 hours straight! and has kept it up! and even has gone as long as 10 hours! She is amazing! seriously the PERFECT baby! She cries when she's over tired sometimes and when she's hungry! she has tons of smiles to share and loves to "talk" She got to meet all her family! well most of all her family :) We are so excited for christmas to be with family again!!

Kensley Noel- Her Birth Story

I know I need to write this down asap before the details fade or I forget something! So  Let us begin this beautiful story of how Kensley Noel came into this world.

Monday September 10th- Ultrasound appt in the AM where they measured/ estimated Kensley to be 9lbs 4oz! yikes! super happy that she would for sure be coming on Thursday if she didn't come on her own!

Mom flies in at 12:15! woot woot! We go grocery shopping make sure we got what we need and snacks for  delivery for Mama and Lance..(and me shhhhh..) lol That night slept good except for a toothache that came on again :(

Tuesday September 11th- the day Lance and I both always in the back of our head thought watch she'll come on the 11th. Went shopping at Sams to finish up last grocery list items and then Mom and I went to this yummy Vegan Cuisine Restaurant which was yummy!! it was a buffet and we both ate way to much! lol for dinner we made grilled veggies and both of us were to full to eat still since we ate lunch late. I ate a yogurt and then we all went of a walk and I noticed this time I was getting some good contractions during the walk came home and off to bed we went! I crashed no nap and very tired!

Wednesday September 12th- 12:58am woke up to my first contraction that was strong so I decided to keep track of my contractions so I got my Ipod out and used the app! 7-5 min apart then they were 5 min and It was about 2:30 am and I thought lets see if I still have them in an hour sure enough another hour goes by with contractions 5 min apart and uncomfortable ones too! so I take a shower and do my hair and make up just in case they keep up and we end up going to the hospital!... another hour goes by and then during the 4 o'clock hour they were 4-5 minutes apart and getting more uncomfortable so I waited til 5 and felt I should wake up Lance and see what he thinks we should do he wasn't sure and we felt we should ask Mom so I opened her door and she says " is it time!" I laughed and told her what was going on and asked her what we should do she said we should head to the hospital aim on the side of caution we called the doctors office before we left to make sure what Doc wanted us to do she called us back and I told her what was going on she said head straight to L and D now. So we did! got to the hospital at about 6 am and Nurse Susan got us in our room and hooked up to the monitor to check baby heart beat and contractions she checked me and if I remember right said I was 4.5-5 cm and 70% effaced Shift change at 7 and we got a new Nurse! Nurse Deborah aka Debbie! aka best L& D nurse EVER! She came in and got me a birthing ball! contractions were consistent and about 3 min apart nothing to painful though They admitted me into the hospital officially after talking with Dr. B. and got me on an IV boo! she tried twice and my veins would turn so she got another nurse and she had to do it twice..4th time the charm! hated that! I'm not a fan of needles!!! 9 am Dr Butler came in and broke my water! that was soo weird! I felt like Niagara Falls! Thats when the contractions stepped it up a knock! I had to start focusing on relaxing and Lance was such a great coach and would remind me to relax and he would say Honey I can see it in your face your not relax breathe and relax your whole body! his reminders were wonderful! He would also remind me to relax my shoulders and breathe. He rubbed my shoulder once and after that I needed him to continue to do that during contractions for some reason it was helping me to relax and breathe through the contraction better. around 12:30pm the contractions were getting much stronger and I really really had to focus on relaxing my body and letting my body relax and open. No talking during these contractions at all! I was getting soo tired I couldn't keep my eyes open they were so heavy I had been up for over 12 hours and was feeling it! Lance and Mom were great about reminding me to relax and breathe and around but the pain was getting over bearing and around 1ish I started asking Mom and Lance that I wanted an epidural. ( side note at the beginning after they broke my water I had told Lance and Mom that at some point I was going ot tell them I wanted an epidural but to not let me that it was the pain talking and not what I really wanted! so try to remind me not to get it) this was the point I started doubting myself I didn't think I could do it naturally The pain was to much to bare I was to tired to keep this up and be able to still push her out when the time came but Mom was so good about asking me why I wanted the epidural and I said cause i'm tired and need to sleep and it hurts so bad...Mom encouraged me and said Brittany you are doing so well! your almost there! so I continued to endure a few more contractions and again I said I want an epidural!! and they both said no you don't remember and I said no I really do I really do want it!!! and I could see in Lance's face he was lookin like he was coming on myside lol but Mom kept saying you can do this Brittany You are almost there! You don't really want it! The nurse came in shortly after that and I asked her if there was any other pain medication besides ones with needles? She smiled and said is the only reason you don't want the epidural is the needle? I said yes. she said its not that bad but also they have demoral sp? and told me it makes me sleeping and the baby sleeping with that one. She also said there was alot of labors so if I wanted an epidural I would need to order it soon..she then suggested let me check your progress and you can decide from there..so she did! 8cm and 90% effaced!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was sooo happy!! When she said that she then told me if you want that epidural you have to let me know now so I can order it in and you get it in time! That point I knew I could do it I can finish I was almost there like Mom was saying! I could do it! so I told her no I don't want the epidural ( plus the thought of a needle still made me nervous!! not relaxed)

So Debbie suggested getting a bar over the bed to help with contractions and so forth so she put this bar thing up and dropped half the bed down where this bed turned into like this big chair thing ...this bed was amazing it had all kinds of contraptions! so I sat up with that and so glad she did that! they put a birthing ball in between so I could lean over better and what not these contractions were soooo BAD! lower back pain with them so it made it easy for Lance to apply pressure on my lower back during the contraction and easy for me to focus on relaxing and breathing through the contractions Mom started massaging my feet and calves which felt amazing with lance massaging my Lower back! they would remind me to breath and relax my shoulders and body they would state many times I was doing great! which was very encouraging for me and made me feel better 3:00pm came around and I was feeling like pushing with my contractions so Debbie checked me and baby's head was down but still a little high so she said go for it when I felt like it so I did! After some of the pushes Kensley's heartbeat would drop so She hooked me up to some oxygen and We would have breaks of not pushing during the contractions which was soooo hard not to do! I mentally was trying not to push but my body was saying heck no PUSH! but her heart rate would go back to normal and we would start pushing again after about an hour she checked and baby's head was still high she then asked to give her a good push and realized Kensley kept going down with a push and back up! and she told me she thinks the baby needs to turn I need to get on my side so we begin to turn me to the right and I get comfortable which is rare and Kensleys heart rate drops again on goes the oxygen and she said nope not that side baby doesn't like it so we turn on my left side and she gets these crazy leg things out from the bed and try again to get comfortable before another contraction and then pushes came again oxygen again goes on and I need to take a break from pushing I breath through the contraction super hard not to push Mom and Lance kept saying no Brittany you can't push this time you need to take a break Kensley's heart rate wasn't ready for me to push again so so hard!! Debbie came back to the room and Mom and Lance told her how I kept saying I really needed to push! she said I could so I pushed and something felt different this time we got me back up sitting/ squatting with the bar in front of me and pushing I go that was about 4:30pm and finally just before 5 baby's head was coming out and then I didn't want to stop pushing but Doctor wasn't there yet Debbie called in another nurse she came in and started telling me not to push breath liek this and she would puff out her checks I still wanted to push it was soooooooooooo hard not pushing!! I still gave in and pushed some and the nurse said lets get her legs down and kept saying breath puff out your checks! Mom  said wheres the doctor she better be huffing and puffing when she comes in I heard Debbie tell the other nurse she called the doc 30 min ago and then again when she saw the head so she should be there! Finally the door swings open and Dr. B runs in the room scrubs on and ready I said oh Dr. B i am so happy to see you can i push now! she said just a sec let me get my gloves on so on goes this gown and gloves on her and she said okay! best words I'd heard! finally I can now push when my body is saying push!! I was so tired and felt weak and that my pushes weren't as strong as they could have been but Baby came out 5:06pm! Lance kept giving me updates on her head he would say I can see her head its right there babe! and with every push him and Debbie would say push push push push!!! Debbie would count to 10 and then lance would say her head is half way out babe keep pushing your doing great!! and then finally her head was out! Lance said Her head is out honey I can see her!! out came a shoulder and then the rest of her and I felt so relieved! out she came and Lance said She's out honey! and Dr B lifted her clamped the cord so fast we didn't have time to say wait ! lol then lance cut the cord! and away they took her spot in the room where they rubbed her off and check her vitals and took her blood sugar and what felt like forever Doc was stitching me up while I looked at her and Lance and Lance was talking to her in her little cube and she cried a little but not much but it was such a cute cry! I kept asking can I hold her now! Lance asked how much I I thought she weighed I said 8.5 pounds he said she weighs 7lbs 11oz! 21 in long! She is perfect! Finally my nurse cleaned me up and doc was done.  Lance then finally was able to get her and bring her to me! cutest face in the world was when I saw Lance with teary eyes Hand me our little angel! Our very own Baby!! I couldn't believe she was ours! I put her skin on skin! and she was beautiful! so sweet! I was so overwhelmed with this peaceful feeling and just felt like she had always been mine for forever! She was worth the wait! She got to stay with me for a while and then I let Daddy and Grandma hold her and my nurse brought in cheese and crackers and juice for me and brought me the menu to order dinner! I was SOOO HUNGRY!  dinner came and it was the best salad ever! plus the cran-grape juice tasted sooo good! I hadn't had Juice in so long! lol then 7:15 came and Lance went with Kensley to the nursery I ate food and got moved to postpartum Kensley and Lance finally got back to the room around 9:30pm and it was so amazing to finally have her with me and hold her for as long as I wanted!

 The awesome L & D Room!

 contraction time- Coach Lance is awesome!

 Just seconds after she was born

 Finally Mommy gets to hold Kensley!

 Daddy and Daughter

 Nurse Debbie- I love! me and Lance and Kensley with Dr. B yes I was so swollen from the IV and the sugar water!

  Kensley Noel 

I am so in love with this little girl and words can't describe how I feel or how to explain the feelings I have that I finally have my rainbow baby in my arms and here on earth. She is such a Miracle! Daddy and I are completely smitten by her.

Waiting for the Arrival

Well  last Thursday at my Doctors appointment started out like any other...go into the lab room for weight and blood pressure all good and then into the room with the big black chair to get on the fetal monitor :) then after what seems like 30 ish minutes into the exam room I go to wait for Dr. B  to see me :) She wanted to check to see my progression the week before I was 2.5 cm and 0% effaced.....well as of Thursday I was 3.5 ish and she said She could push a 4 so she said she would help me along so she did! holy pressure like no other! not very comfortable that is for sure but I was happy she didn't say how much effaced I was only that I was and that was a good sign and then she asked me when my induction date was scheduled? I told her I had no idea what she was talking about and she was all oh my goodness we don't have it scheduled yet! you'll be 39 weeks next week and I don't let my GD patients go past 39 weeks! So she said unless she comes before Thursday September 13th I am scheduled to get induced! needless to say Since Thursday We have been going on tons and tons of walks!! I gotta get this little one out! lol I would really like for her to come on her own but either way its nice to know that by the 13th we will have our baby!!! yay!!  So this is our last weekend with out a baby and I am sooo excited!!!  My Mama flies in on Monday unless Kensley comes today or tomorrow lol So we shall see when Kensley comes! :) I am one very anxious Mama here!

The Difference

  For me I don't  think I have unrealistic expectations on what Motherhood is going to be. I don't think its going to be a breeze or that my baby will be perfect and never cry and sleep through the night from day one or behave perfect 24/7. I know My life will change in so many ways! I know there will be sleepless nights and times when I will wonder if I'm doing it right or being a Good Mom.  I have spent a fair share of watching kiddos and lots of talks with Mothers and their stories and their experiences. but I also know there are those sweet moments of Motherhood too.

 So it makes me laugh when people ask when baby will here and I tell them and say how I wish she was already here...and no joke almost every lady says " Enjoy your sleep now cause when that baby comes you won't get much of it"..I've had  24 years to enjoy my sleep...and   News flash I'm 9 months preggers "enjoying" sleep is pretty much out of the question and I'm okay with that! It means finally i'm not sleeping cause their is a human being growing inside of me waiting to enter this beautiful world! I would take these kinds of sleepless nights instead of the ones in Tears over a lost baby or frustration for not having a baby or being pregnant and having to see that negative pregnancy test for the 1000th time and wondering why I can't get pregnant or why we don't have a baby yet....Those are nights that suck! I've waited 4+ years to have sleepless nights with a baby! BRING IT ON!!!

You see for me in those nights when I've been in tears wondering when my sweet miracle will come I've poured my heart out to Heavenly Father asking him to give me these sleepless nights! I've prayed for morning sickness, for sleepless nights with a baby, a messy house full of toys and little hand prints on mirrors and sliding doors and appliances, for kids to get into the toilet paper, make up, lotion, vaseline, bedtime stories with my own kids, sweet moments of rocking my baby to sleep.

I'm sure I sound crazy to a lot of you for praying for that but that's the difference for me. When those women who have prayed for those days to go quickly so a new day can start. I've prayed for those days to come. Everyone has their own life experiences and mine have brought me here. I have prayed for these days for years now and I'm ready to experience all the joys that come with being a Mom and taking care of my own baby.  So yes I'm ready to have a baby and be a Mom and learn the whole new meaning of being exhausted and tired! It won't last forever and like the poem says " babies don't keep" so I plan on embracing and enjoying every moment with my baby even those hard nights or days or weeks or months. Bring it on!

Rainbow Tutu for my Rainbow Baby!

I've been looking online at Pinterest for some cute ideas for Rainbow Tutu I knew I wanted something for Kensley with Rainbow and I thought Tutu would be perfect! so I Made her a Rainbow Tutu tonight! can't wait for her to wear it and take pictures of her in it! for those who don't know what a Rainbow Baby is this quote sums it all up

 "Rainbow Babies" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope I'm gonna make a bigger size tutu for when she is older too! I just really wanted newborn pictures of her in it! :)